So, it's been a while since I put audio up on the site, so I'm punishing myself with humility. This is a song I wrote last month. Unfortunately, I've come to terms with the fact that I can't actually write music that I'm happy with for my voice. So, the result is generally me singing constantly flat and making believe I sound differently than I do. This is actually meant to sound much harder. I imagined being sung by a Chad Kroeger kind of voice (the guy from Nickelback). I sound like the mix between a wanna be popstar and johnny cash. ha. But, this is primarily just to present a song I've written with a vague idea of how it sounded in my head. Generally, when I write songs I hear them in my head and then write them down. So, just a way to get into my "process". I apologize for the ear damage, but imagine a band like Shinedown singing it or something.
The Weed
© James A Daulton 2006
I ain’t never been
Too damn sure
If I liked someone else
Or me more
When I lay alone
I get so scared
I get on the phone
To try to get repaired
Noone to save me
And I feel lately
I gotta get good
[My kids are gonna be
Proud of their daddy
Noone’s gonna ask me
Why couldn’t I be
Any better, any better
Than me]
I get kind of mad
At my past
Feeling kind of like life
Kicked me in the ass
Never thought it would be
So damn hard
But I turn around amazed
That I got this far
I can’t get through it
But I do it
Everytime
[My kids are gonna be
Proud of their daddy
Noone’s gonna ask me
Why couldn’t I be
Any better, any better
Than me]
I hated myself
For so long now
I don’t know how I lived like that
But I did it somehow
I prayed to God a few times
Sometimes for hours
I was the weed in life
Held up by the flowers
But now that I see that
I can’t be that
Anymore
[My kids are gonna be
Proud of their daddy
Noone’s gonna ask me
Why couldn’t I be
Any better, any better
Than me]
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